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Yep. That's all I wanted to say. Hellos. :)
  • Reading: Black Company
  • Watching: supernatural
  • Playing: DDO
  • Eating: Popcorn
Scanner is up and working again. Expect to see some new things this week.
  • Reading: Dresden Files
  • Watching: Top Gear
  • Playing: DDO
Haven't been able to update anything lately due to scanner issues. Hopefully I'll be able to sort things out over the coming weeks.
  • Reading: Dresden Files
  • Watching: Top Gear
  • Playing: DDO
We owned him since March 2006. He was the oldest of all our pets and yet he outlived both Waldorf, Jaya, and the two toads. He was a great little chirp-chirp. I'll miss hearing him singing softly in the morning. He had a wonderful song.
  • Listening to: REM
  • Reading: Dresden Files
  • Watching: Top Gear
  • Playing: DDO
  • Eating: crackers
  • Drinking: rootbeer
I leave tomorrow morning. So hyper and nervous since this will be my first time flying solo. Here's to me not getting lost in an airport. *cheers*


I'll add photos when I get back in a weeks time. :D
  • Listening to: Mordred's Lullaby
  • Reading: Lamb
  • Watching: Top Gear
  • Playing: DDO
  • Eating: a samvich
  • Drinking: kool-aid
and I'm not sharing.

You are so jealous. :p
  • Listening to: Poets of the Fall - Save Me
  • Reading: Magician: Apprentice
  • Watching: Stargate Atlantis
  • Playing: DDO
  • Eating: a yummy cookie
  • Drinking: Choco. milk
(don't mind this. It's just me rambling about the nightmares I've been having lately and I simply need to spew them out into words and get them out of my system)

So ever since I was a kid I've always had the same kind of dreams and for the most part, none of them good. Growing up I blocked out a lot of those dreams by waking up every few hours in the night. Getting older I've been sleeping longer and not waking up so often. Every now and then Mr Jag's wakes me up and ask if I'm okay 'cause I'm having another bloody evil nightmare and I'm whimpering in my sleep.


Blahhh... normaly I get along just fine even after having these nightmares but now they are all changing on me and I'm to scared to sleep. Dreams that are normally of high sandy cliffs being washed away by tidal waves are now dry waste lands with deep cracks in the soil.

Fire is a common thing in my dreams and something that I normally never fear in the dream itself (or even when I'm awake). It's just something that I have to back away from so I don't get burned and for the most part it's perfectly safe and I have nothing to worry about it when it's consuming part of the dream. Seems like my tidal wave dream came over and decided to drown out those fires and leave me with a room flooded with water. Yeah.. not so scary but at least with the fire I knew what was happening in my dream and I had control.

And now for the final common nightmare that decided it needed an update. Snow in my dreams often leaves me with a sence of ill omen for the days that follow after I've had the dream.  Often the dream includes packs of wild dogs and great winter wolves biting and snapping and attempting to get into the house. Fun times.. weeh... *whimper* They always start out so nice though by seeing one big beautiful wolf with bright intelligent eyes standing in view of the window. 'course then all the lights start flickering and the mean pups come out to play.

Why did my scary mean pups have to turn into cats? I have no idea if this is good or bad. They don't attack but they do manage to get inside. The lights still flicker about inside the house and all I can see are the glow of eyes outside the window. My beautiful wolf became a bobcat with long black fur along his ears and down his legs. I've got a cheetah in the house behaving like a lazy house cat and an ocelot watching me from the back door. I'm still scared that they are all gonna try and get in but I'm more scared because I'm no longer alone in the dream. The other person it amused by all the flickering lights in the house and never seems to see the big cat that is looking right back at them from the dining room window.

*shrug*

I want to pretend these changes in my dreams are a good thing, but I've had these dreams since childhood. Your use to the things you know. Change is scary.

Anyway, to those that know me and see me every other day or so, if I seem sleepy or out of it it's because I am. I'll be okay though, just gotta work these bloody dreams out of my head.
  • Listening to: musics
  • Reading: fotgn rp forums
  • Watching: startrek
  • Playing: DDO
  • Eating: candybar wrapper. >> nom nom nom
  • Drinking: arizona fruit punch
yup... my cruddy 2 year old scanner is causing me to many problems.  Much..much... to many problems. I fear if I turn it back on again, it'll crash my computer like it did the last 20 odd times and from all the computer problem reports... I'm not sure my computron can take another hit. :x

so....

I'm looking for a good printer/scanner that is NOT in any way or form  related to an HP printer... *hisses*


any suggestions?
  • Listening to: musics
  • Reading: candy bar wrapper
  • Playing: DDO
  • Eating: candybar wrapper. >> nom nom nom
  • Drinking: arizona fruit punch
*sings very low and very slowly* Happy Birthday to me...Happy Birthday to me.... *jumps up* I still ACT like I'm CRAZY!
Happy Birthday to ME! *giggles*

^_^


I am now a quarter of a century old, and despite all the scrapes and dents and knocks to the head, I feel wonderful and fantastic. I feel no older then I did yesterday or even the day before.
I still feel young and happy and I hope I continue to feel this way when I reach those other three quarters on my 100th birthday.
  • Listening to: birds outside my window
  • Reading: a book with words in it
  • Playing: fable 2
  • Eating: cupcake
  • Drinking: strawberry milk :)
Just got home. Wow I'm tired. o0;

But, oh man, what a time. :D!!
Gotta see fellow gamers, spend way to much monies on dice and watch/play a lot of neat games and stuffs.

Pictures well be incoming, shortly. After I get more sleep. Zzzz..
  • Listening to: ddo podcast
  • Reading: FotGN forums
  • Playing: ddo ((like always))
  • Eating: cookie
  • Drinking: ..something... not sure what it is.. >>
:hug:
  • Listening to: sickpuppies (the band.. not actual sick puppies)
  • Reading: FotGN forums
  • Watching: you tube
  • Playing: ddo ((like always))
  • Eating: cookie
  • Drinking: milk
*Is the happiest little duckie you'll see for the next week*

I love my parents. So much fun. ^_^

They staid with Daniel and I, at our apartment, for the last few days. Daniel had to work most of it sadly but it was still a great time.

Mom and Dad drove me out to Lunenburg (small fishing community in Nova Scotia) and we found a nice bit of information about great grandfather Thomas Farewell. Him, his boat the Joyce M. Smith and all the crew where sunk in the August Gale of 1927 along with several other ships. We actually found a photo of him in the museum along with a photograph of the schooner. His name along with the name of his nephew where also on the fisherman's memorial that was built outside.
Needless to say, I've a few photos to post along with a photo of mom and dad on the horse and buggy that we went for a ride on. Lot of fun. :3
  • Listening to: a bunch of old Newfie jigs
  • Reading: FotGN forums
  • Watching: you tube
  • Playing: ddo ((like always))
  • Eating: fishie cakes
  • Drinking: rum and wine
Got up this morning to a little less singing and a little less calling of birds today.
Jaya died last night sadly. :<
Gonna miss the funny little chirps and the cute way he'd look at me while I cleaned his cage.

Update: Just got home a little while ago and was getting ready to clean out jaya's cage... checked the toads cage too.. Burk was fine this morning.. now he's gone too. :(

I have no idea what's going on. is it just crappy timing?... something wrong with the room they are in? Not good.... *sob*
  • Listening to: Statler singing softly
  • Reading: FotGN forums
  • Watching: you tube
  • Playing: ddo ((like always))
  • Eating: fruit
  • Drinking: milk
To those that are waiting on more commission info and the like.. I'm really sorry. It's getting hectic over here with packing and cleaning.
I move to a bigger apartment on Sunday. I can't wait. :D but I hate the fact that I'm the only one able to pack up all of the stuff... >>
Daniel's work got him working longer nights and also working this Saturday to get another episode of the cartoon he's working on, finished.
Besides that and the fact that I can't give over the number of comic books we own, all is good. And I wait for Monday, where I'll have everything unpacked and well then build a fort out of all the empty boxes. ^_^

I'll update again then.
Later
  • Listening to: a computer
  • Reading: FotGN forums
  • Watching: you tube
  • Playing: ddo ((like always))
  • Eating: sugar
  • Drinking: sugar
Yesterday my ego and whole since of being kinda got smashed against a wall and then stepped on... That's what it feels like anyway..  
A complete stranger managed to make me cry. Someone I've never met before. Someone that should have no affect on me... and they made me cry.


"Why should anyone help you?" was what he yelled to my back. "Why should anyone help you?"

He was trying to make me take a cd of his. Based on 'facts' and 'truths' of Steptember 11th 2001 and spewing things I've heard a billion times before. I didn't want it. I heard enough of it all... I don't want it. I know what happened was wrong. I don't want it.... I can only fix what I can fix.... I don't want it.

Maybe I would have taken the damn thing, in the first place, if it wasn't the way the man forced and bullied... Maybe..

So I said "sorry, I can't, sorry," and walked away. And he yelled at me.

"why should anyone help you?"

I don't understand why anyone would say that. How they think it okay. That such words mean nothing.
When speaking to a stranger... have we forgotten that they are still people? That all people have had some difficult or trying event in there life. That maybe they are still going threw those events. Maybe even haunted by something in there past?

Would you say those words to a rehab patient? Someone trying to get better? Someone that is terminally ill? Someone that's been mugged? Someone that's lost family, there home, a friend?

Really? Saying those words because a person wishes not to take a little cd? I don't understand... Just like I don't understand why those words cut me so bad...

So... I went on my way.. Did what I had to do... knew I would have to walk back the way I came and I would see that Political activist again. And so I did, and I stopped and looked at him. I waited patiently for him to finish talking to two other people, and then I asked why he said those words. I told him a number of times to stop yelling, for all he was doing was getting hyped up and over reacting. Finally I sat down (damn my heart was pounding) and I asked him again.

Unkind words like that, are how fights start. Fights are how whole communities begin to take sides. Whole cities, countries, nations.. Wars start from people being able to show acts of kindness towards each other. Jealousy, arrogance, ignorance... Wars start because people wont set down and talk to each other...

Only a bully well say "why should anyone help you?"
Only a bully well say it to your back.
But only a moron is capable of not seeing what's looking right back at them.

I talked to that man. He didn't really talk to me... I could see it in his face. All the words I spoke just went past him like a mild wind.
His smug jackass smile on his face, while he held a cigarette between his fingers.
Reflection of my quivering lip and pitiful eyes  lost in his red eyes.

It's sad... Hurts me the most. When people can't just talk to each other. When all the want to hear is there own voice. All they want are the sheep and cattle people to do has they say, and to hear there little bleats...



Well sir... I did take a cd from you. No, I well not watch it. No, I well not except your words and stories has 'truths and facts.'  For you see sir... there are 3 sides to a story.
There 3 sides to all stories.  Yours, mine, and the truth.

I like the truth. and I like mine.. but I'm not sure if yours hold enough ground.

and sir.. when next you ask "why should anyone help you?"

"Because I will help myself."

and "because it's the right thing to do." (I really wished you heard me when I said those things, sir. I hope someday something happens to you, and those words ring in your ear. I hope someone does help you.)

I have to go peel my ego off the ground now.

I wish you all the best of luck. Even that unkind man.  I wish you all the best.  
And if you ask, I'll help you.



~~~

I final note..

If anyone says something so cruel has this to you, don't stand for it.
I do feel very proud of myself for walking back and confronting that man. Though my heart could tell it was risky.. Very risky..
May I suggest to others...

Just call the police and file for verbal harassment.
No ones got the right to treat others like that. No one.
  • Listening to: a computer
  • Reading: FotGN forums
  • Watching: you tube
  • Playing: ddo ((like always))
  • Eating: sugar
  • Drinking: sugar
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Soo... I'm still very very red in the face. Hehe.. And umm.. Lessah, who is going to be attacked by a mound of cookies later, gave me a kick in the arse that I've been in need of.

So... I'm thinking...

How about I start taking commissions?


Starting slowly. say.. 3 commissions.

Deriaz already claimed the first.
Delrin
and Lessah


Waiting list
Devoue




umm... still need to figure out a price and what sort of quality and stuff. Umm.. any suggestions? Should I go with this? Are there enough people interested?
  • Listening to: Jaya and Statler singing
  • Reading: FotGN forums
  • Watching: you tube
  • Playing: ddo ((like always))
  • Eating: popcorn
  • Drinking: ispep
Yeah... I had another crappy day at work...

I'm getting really tired of my co-workers not showing up for there shift...

Good note... I have a visa... Think I'll go burn some credit. Get me some ice cream.
  • Listening to: Jaya and Statler singing
  • Reading: FotGN forums
  • Watching: you tube
  • Playing: ddo ((like always))
  • Eating: popcorn
  • Drinking: ispep
did you notice the hint of sarcasm there? No? Oh.. well.. Let me explain.

First. It really sucks when you boss is on the phone yelling at you because the ice cream man was suppose to come in on Saturday instead of Monday. Specially while the ice cream man is standing next to you, yelling because the ice cream is melting and you don't have the monies to pay him because he was suppose to be in on Saturday... when we had the money to pay him...
Second. Recall orders suck.  *Punts Cadbury* At least the Cadbury rep. promised to bring  me a free box of chocolate or something, for the troubles of hunting down all the recall chocolates :3 hmm... chocolate *unpunts*
Third.  Visa cards are really hard to activate.
Forth. I have to mail my income taxes!


And now I am doomed. DOOOOOOOOM!!!!!!+1
  • Listening to: Jaya and Statler singing
  • Reading: FotGN forums
  • Watching: you tube
  • Playing: ddo ((like always))
  • Eating: popcorn
  • Drinking: ispep
Had one of them last night.

Scared me a bit but at the same time, not.
There was some sort of van that had turned over and smashed. My eyes wouldn't let me see any details. There was a hollowed out burnt building and right next to it was this big building that was being made for a factory or something. It was on fire in a few places and there was a lot of people there, trying to put it out.

Scared me 'cause my mother was there. We where driving in her truck, and had just gotten back from swimming. In the dream dad was working at the factory. Building and crafting things. We picked him up and for some reason he was angry/disappointed in himself.

I told him all the things I loved about him.

Now it makes me cry and I need to get hold of my parents. I don't like these kinds of dreams.
  • Listening to: Jaya and Statler singing
  • Reading: FotGN forums
  • Watching: you tube
  • Playing: ddo ((like always))
  • Eating: popcorn
  • Drinking: ispep
when sun rays crown thy pine clad hills
and summer spreads her hand..
when silvern voice tune thy rills we love thee, smiling land... blah blah blah next!

when spreads thy cloak of shimmering white..
ant winter's stern command(it gets flipp'n cold alright. )
thro' shortened day, and starlit night(someone turned off the lamp o0;;)
we love tee, frozen land (come on global warming!)
blah blah blah.. next  !

as blindng storms gust fret thy shore. and wild waves lash thy strand,
thro spindrift swirl (watch out for the razor grass!)
and tempest roar (avoid Wreckhouse it got 120 mph winds!) we love they windswept land (waaaaahh *flies off*)
  • Listening to: Jaya and Statler singing
  • Reading: FotGN forums
  • Watching: Cloverfield in about 40 min :)
  • Playing: ddo ((like always))
  • Eating: a pretzel
  • Drinking: ispep